Day 41: write a letter to yourself stating all the things you love about yourself
I think you’re a nice person. You’re a good daughter, and you make a lot of people lucky just from knowing you. Your parents love you, you have a boyfriend that loves you to the end of the earth. You have problems, but you deal with them and use them to your advantage. You’re not a drama queen. You’re not afraid to have your own opinions and you can’t stand the thought of an ignorant idiot. You’re a smart person. You get good grades, you work especially hard. Maybe not in the emotional aspect, but in the future plans aspect you’re in a pretty good place. Visiting colleges has been good for you. You are surviving your Junior year. You got tapped into NHS and you got involved with drama and finally became a STARS member. You can type fast. Your fingers are slender and so are your arms. Your legs might not be your favorite but you have muscles. Same with your stomach, though you may have to work on that a little more. You know how to eat sensibly (just gotta work on that a little bit, too). You’re a little lost, but you have so much potential. You haven’t found a passion, but you have abilities. You’re a good writer. You have found a nice niche in photography and you found some nice friends this year in high school. You’ve made friends with the asians again and they’re good people to be with. It seems like the people who know you from middle school have fond memories of you. You’re a strong person. You deal with your depression, you work with it. You have stopped giving into the weakness that is your past. Maybe you breakdown, but you’ll come out untouchable one of these days. Your passion for India is astounding and beautiful. Your love of Bollywood is a culturally-enriching experience and it’s the best kind of learning you can expose yourself to at this point in your life. You’re messy, but you’ve got it together. You fix your mistakes and you say sorry too much but it’s better to be over polite than to be a bitch. Pictures of you look nice. You’re learning each year. You look good in a lot of clothes, you have your own sense of style. You have gotten basically every internet/celebrity person you truly admire to reply to one of your comments (atm: ntima, tierney, chani, raymond..pending: shahrukh). You’re compassionate, sympathetic, and empathetic. You actually think about others and you know a jackass when you see one. You know how to be productive and you can be a good leader. You’re good with kids, you make people smile. You’ve worked on your more crude humor and you have a pretty nice sense of humor overall. Your laugh is nice, and of course your smile is, too. When you do your makeup it seems like you know what you’re doing without overdoing it. If you procrastinate you still get it done. Your hair looks good in general. You have a good taste in music. You’re good with money, you’re not selfish, and you’re not spoiled. You’re a teenager—you’re rude, you’re hormonal—but you’re not uncontrollable. You’ve always been considered mature for your age. You know how to enjoy things and you don’t let others be affected just because you are. You’re a good listener and you let your parents have a breather. You do what you can, and you’ll go where you will. Jeena Yahan Maran Yahan
I like to think I’ve chosen them carefully. I’m not completely comfortable with most people. I’m not always natural and I adjust my personality to the person I’m with. I think too much about how I should be acting, which is dependent on how they seem to act along their better friends. I think all of my friends are great, they’re nice, and they’re smart. But they all have someone else
translation(supposedly): We live here, we die here.
This is it. It’s not a half full or half empty phrase about life, it’s a simple fact. Life is what it is. Anything can happen, anything can end. Things don’t last forever, but that doesn’t mean we have any reason to give up. We live here, we die here. It’s truth—it’s acceptance.
Day 34: your horoscope for today and whether you think it’s accurate
New winds will begin to blow away the black clouds that have been hovering over you lately. What more could you want? Today will seem like a walk in the park compared to days past! You’ll breathe better and come home feeling rested. Try to interact more with the people around you. They will appreciate it if you express genuine interest in their opinions.
I think it was kind of the opposite today. Earlier today my past and darker desires clouded over me and they’re still lingering. And I had a tough day with SAT Prep and then going on to work on a Physics project for 6 or so hours. I guess the interaction was good
Day 32: whether you’d rather marry someone who’s rich but ugly, or poor but attractive
I’m assuming we’re talking about looks and not personality… I mean if a person has a nice personality they aren’t ugly in my eyes so. I’d like to be able to support us and a family so I’ll go with the first. I’m not snob though and we’d work something out. Looks are definitely not everything
My mom is a working woman and she is success. She is intelligent, she is a great cook, she likes to read, she knows her foliage, and I can talk to her.
My dad works as well. He is an ex-marathon runner, and it shows. He is intelligent and he likes to use too many big words and he’s not the greatest cook but he’s fun to poke fun with and he has a good sense of humor. He likes sports a lot
My brother has become the anti-role model. I cannot think of bigger opposites
Day 18: why you made your blog, why you still have it
Because I felt like I needed to get a tumblr after following so many people without having an account and because I can’t help but want to know what’s going on with some of the people I follow and I want to get my daily dose of Bollywood and because I never know when the next post will speak to me more than I could’ve imagined
I look up to these “everyday”, beautiful internet people such as N’tima and Tierney and Chani—because they are beautiful people with beautiful lives and beautiful love. Beauty doesn’t come without flaws, but their incredible appreciation for this world does not need to acknowledge this plain truth.
"Miserably Loving You" by Artist Vs. Poet or "My Heart" by Paramore used to do the trick some years ago—when his chain was still wrapped around my heart. But now I’ve been set free, given an angel’s wings.
Day 14: write about something you believe in, anything at all
I do believe in love. And not because I feel that I have been graced by it, but because without love, there would be so many things unexplained in this world. I believe in the concept of love, the physical attraction associated with love and the mind fucking one undergoes when experiencing love. I do believe there are ways to describe it, but there are ways and ways and ways and yet we’d be left with things one can never say. I believe love can save you and I believe that love can kill you. Love is a powerful thing. Maybe love isn’t the right word—maybe it’s pyaar or amore—but it exists in this world.
The extremes of the world—wealth and poverty—the poor would no longer be poor and money wouldn’t determine the quality of life. Everyone should be allowed to go to school, to get work, to have three meals a day, to drink water, to live without fear